Sure, I’ll explain myself. It is a blessing, because G-d knows exactly what situation will provide every single person the ability to grow to their full potential. So G-d gives each person unique things that they must go through, and hopefully they come out of it with growth, with being one step closer to their potential. Sure, it’s natural to see these things and say “Wow, these are really bad things I’m going through.. why was I given such a difficult nisayon?” Well, the answer is that we don’t know exactly why we were given these specific nisyonos. But we DO know that they are “custom-tailored” to help us become the best people we can be. Therefore, they are ALL blessings. There isn’t one difficulty that G-d gives that isn’t done for our good.
Now, of course, we have emotions and instincts, and they will sometimes control our minds and make us suffer through these situations. But those are just our natural, human reactions. The REALITY is that it is all for our good, and hopefully, eventually, when we overcome our initial emotions, we see it that way. But we can even see it that way from the onset, if we are able to.
And no, I’ve never studied those subjects, and no, I don’t know at all how G-d runs the world. None of us do. But I do have a way of dealing with whatever may happen to me in life based on my beliefs in an extremely positive way, and that’s much better than many people have.