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If you can connect with your teacher, thats great. I understand that based on past experience, you feel uncomfortable, but if you’re cautious, you’ll be ok. 🙂 mommamia22 suggested a Shabbaton, and if you think that wouldn’t work, maybe it can on a smaller scale. Get creative! And maybe if enough people feel the same way, your school can get (a speaker like) Rabbi Wallerstein to come in.