It felt weird doing all these things. I know that it was a mitzva for me to do them, but it still felt wrong.
I had bypass surgery several years ago, about a month before Tisha B’Av. I didn’t fast on Sheva Asar b’Tamuz, but as the nine days started, I called and asked the cardiologist if I could fast. Not only did he say no, but he took the name and number of our Rav and called and discussed it with him. The Rav then called me and told me not only should I not fast, I should eat normal meals.
It also felt very weird to me, but I did it. (What’s even weirder is that Tisha b’Av that year was my first time back in shule after my surgery. I bentched gomel, but couldn’t have an aliyah because I wasn’t fasting.)