Bear,
Maybe you should learn a little mussar, take a look in the mirror and then restart the conversation (maybe apologize and ask mechila?). You have no idea what a man had in his heart a decade ago. Being a baal tayva and knowing you will fail on occasion isn’t mevatel kabolas mitzvos -if it was there would be no geirim ever-.
Nobody goes through life and follows the rules 100% of the time, nobody. Breaking the rules does not make you chutz l’machene, it just means you will have to do teshuva.
Once you are focusing on the ramifications of leaving this world consider the numerous times the Torah commands us to love the Ger and not pain him.