Dear yungerman from Lakewood!
You are right that you question! Your doubts are valid and in place! Being brought up in America or any liberal country gives you the understanding that because my parents accepted something it does not mean that I have to and in yidishkeit that’s a no no! So I understand you all the way!! But no one can prove beyond a reasonable doubt the age of the world ! When you say million years you mean to say the body of time that according to today’s 365 day a year and 24 hours a day times 60 minutes and 60 seconds the world looks like it’s very old! But the word year means the circle of the earth around the sun so if the earth wasn’t always at a constant but took a longer amount of time to circle itself and the sun the world can be any age and the scientific world can’t oppose it! So if you are just a skeptic and you want the possibility to believe in the mesoire of our toire maybe you can!
There are lots of mekoirois for the possibility that the first 6 days of creation were longer than all other days! There are mekoirois for all types of interesting things that for some reason are not taught in our chadorim but they would make the world older even according to the toire like the yavatz….
Now if you really think that the toire way is false and you just keep it on the outside for other people I really feel bad for you! It’s the worst feeling ever you should see a therapist just to keep you sane! But if you’re a skeptic you aren’t an apikoiress so you can enjoy you life of yidishkeit with your wife and children! and hang in there you might just find the answers at the end! we are all waiting for them!!