Live right
In all probability you are probably not going about your recovery properly. If we are discussing an addiction then it is very important that you work with a specific tried and true method for getting over addictions whatever it is that you are dealing with you can’t do it alone and you probably should reach out to a Rabbi and or therapist to help you. Certain things just become such a habit that its really tough to change. You may not really want to change because you may not feel ready to give up this aveira. It gives you some sort of pleasure or escape that you feel that you need. When something gets in deeply be prepared for it to be hard and to hurt to get it out. For example if someone jabs a piece of splinted wood into your thigh and you try to pull it out a lot of flesh will come with it. Unfortunatelythat is how it wworks with ingrained habits. You have to be ready to work hard and sacrifice for it. You will be changing how you think, you may have to change a large part of your outlook on life and yiddishkiet. I’m not trying to discourage you but before going on a journey a person must plan accordingly and know what he will face otherwise he will never get there. If your gps is broken you’ll never get there so being informed on all aspectsof the journey is part of loading your gps with the correct address coordinates.