ur story is like hearbreaking but I just wanna tell u get a good therapist or s/t but don’t it bring down ur neshama aka ruchnias just bec some pep aren’t good reflections of judusim doesn’t mean u should go down this is a huge nison from hasem and ovisley hasem things ur big enough too pass it (if u fail I woln’t blame u)but just no that if u pass this test then anything u would have gained spirtlay there is gonna a 10000000000000000000000 greater here I bless that that u should pass this test & let this test help u b the person u can b u should get married at the right time to s/o who matches ur unbleivabness and also have children who reflect u if u ur pain should help the gelah come quicly and so the’ll be no more sadness
Next time please write in English not text.