I am trying to walk a thin line and I dont mean to be mean, but I suspect your desire to explore judiasm is related to your family crisis (Usually people find religion during family crisis)
I am somewhat afraid that if the crisis is not solved favorably when you find religion, you might blame relgion for “Not Helping”. Thats why I feel its better to go slower.
Because ultimatly there will be big changes in your life if you decide to go all in , you will have to move for example to be in an area with more orthodox jews, you might have to give up your job to move to this area.