streekgeek-
First of all, what is UP with your subtitle? Why does it change every day? Second, you’re so special to work with handicapped children! I almost cried when I read what that lil girl said… She must have such a special neshama- to live with all that pain when she’s only two! I wish I could just hug her… I’m really trying to do more chessed. In fact, I just signed up to a weekly chessed thingy! I’m so excited. You know, a females primary role in life is to bring kedusha to the world through chessed and tznius. I find tznius a big challenge because growing up, my mom and sisters always wore really tight, short stuff… But I LOOOOOVE doing chessed. It makes me feel so good about myself 🙂
As for the speech, Hashem knew that you’re strong enough to stop even without hearing a brilliant speech- that’s amazing! Anyways you managed to stop so don’t feel sad. Please. Have a restful peaceful spiritual Shabbos!
Shopping-
Don’t feel like you’re disconnected! I mean, I’m not fortunate enough to know you in real life but from reading your posts I get the feeling that you’re really spiritual. I also have a hard time with textual davening… Pretty much everyone I speak to about this tells me the same thing so please don’t feel bad. It’s great that you talk to Hashem! There are so many people that don’t have a personal connection with Hashem. They just live a frum life but they aren’t doing it for Hashem, they’re just doing it because it’s convenient. I try to daven for them every day because it’s so sad! About chizzuk hotlines- I always listen to those! I’m kinda obsessed. Kol Halashon, Chazzak, Inspire By Wire… The people that run those hotlines have got such amazing things waiting for them in the next world. So jealous. And about brachos- I thought I was the only one with that issue! I usually remember the bracha before eating but almost never bracha acharona… I feel so guilty! Oh well, another thing to work on… Have an awesome Shabbos!