dear this thread! PLEASE TAKE A MINUTE TO READ THIS!
Guys you are all getting out of hand!!! I hate bringing up this part of my life, cuz I don’t like to remeber all the halachos I was breaking in my past, but I will share with you one small story (and frankly I didnt know any btr growing up very modern and not knowing any better).
People aroiund me in my community go about their daily lives without Torah in their every move! When I was in high school, the girls around me didn’t have a kesher with Hashem. THEY WERE JEWISH GIRLS WITHOUT A KESHER WITH HAKODOSH BORUCH HU!!!!! SHOPPING!!! TAOM! STREEKGEEK!!! NONIKNAME! everyone!!! Think about how special each of you are! The fact you cry out to Hashem, you have the Emuna in these dark times of Galus. you yell out to Hashem you are angry! What a special kesher! And Hashem is carrying you (you know that mashal about how Hashem carried the man through the sand during his hard times and thats why there was only one set of footprints).
I went to a shiur last night about Hester Panim. How do you help a child who is afriad of the dark, you show himt there is no change in his room from the light to the dark. You take him around and say here is the desk here is your bed, here is the door and when you turn off the light you show him again that everything is still there. Hashem brought us all Har Sinai to recive the Torah. It was one of the lightest moments in JEwish History, but Hashem warned of a dark dark Galus! But he said don’t be afriad, remeber this moment and stay connected to me, your Tatty! And guess what I’ve left a light for you, I’ve left the TORAH! that is your light!
So my dear CR family, find that light. there is only so much we can do to help each other until you finnaly need to help yourself. Reach out to the Torah! Do chessed! “adopt a Bubby”. Reconstruct your life. If you woke up this morning, you are special and YOU still have a tafkid here in this world! So don’t pass the opportunity. We all have challenges, but use the “light source” to get you throguh!
Seriously, don’t give up on yourselves, you are about to become stronger than you ever were and THAT IS EXCITING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hatzlocho!!!!!!