nonikname!- go to a mirror right now, close your eyes and then open them.
tell me what you see- I dont want to hear you say I see a depressed person. You see someone who is able to see, someone who has eyes. Someone who is able to type and write her feelings on a place where people care and love to help!
Has Hashem not helped you get up this morning? And gave you the confidence to write everything you just did? If im not mistaken, Hashem helped you do that. Maybe you need to add something more spiritually enlightening to your life, like start saying Tehillim everday with extra kavana. I did that and it has added so much.
Don’t ever think Hashem is not with you (Footsteps in the Sand):
One night a man had a dream.
He dreamed he was walking along
the beach with the Lord.
Across the dark sky flashed scenes from his life.
For each scene, he noticed
two sets of footprints in the sand,
one beloning to him and the other to the Lord.
When the last scene of his life flashed before him,
he looked back at the footprints in the sand.
He noticed that many times along the path of his life
there was only one set of footprints.
He also noticed that it happened at the
very lowest and saddest times in his life.
This bothered him and he questioned the Lord about it.
“Lord, you said that once I decided to follow you,
you’d walk with me all the way.
But I have noticed that during the most
troublesome times in my life there is
only one set of footprints.
I don’t understand why when I needed you most
you would leave me.”
The Lord replied “My precious, precious child,
I love you and would never leave you.
During your times of trial and suffereing,
when you see only one set of footprints in the sand,
it was then that I carried you.”