Hashem

Thanks for the responses… let me get a bit more specific. (If any of the terms is not familiar, please ask and I can explain.

So Hashem’s layers of revelation of His One Self are:
Mimale kol olmin (aka nature aka limited to context aka Elokim)

Sovev kol olmin (aka beyond nature/ miracles, infinity, Hevaya)

Atzmus (nimna hanimnaos can bring both opposite categories together and is not limited to just one way of revelation)

Now, from sovev and above, we can’t depict anything Hashem is like, because that is a limitation and Hashem is beyond our minds. In fact, to Him, physical objects and the loftiest ideologies are on the same plane (think: trying to feel a concept with your hands).

But luckily for us limited humans, Hashem gave us the gift of mimale revelation. It’s a gift because it’sa structure we can relate to, and therefore climb with self growth. That awesome structure is the 10 sefiros which corresponds to the 10 kochos hanefesh (chochma, bina, Daas, netzach, hod, yesod, malchus.)

So, since we can only relate to sovev with Emuna, my investigation pertains to mimale.

I want to try to understand as much as possible Hashems persona so to speak.

For example, He likes and identifies with good, and detests evil. That’s something we can relate to and grow from. I would like to understand more about a few things but we’ll start with one.

I would love elaboration on Hashem’s vengeance and punishment of evil, evil doers. Is He sadistic to evil? Etc. I can elaborate more but I don’t want to make the post too long, so I’ll stop here for now, to hear your thoughts sources. (There are so many sources for what I’ve written here that if you ask me about a sentence, it will be easier to list)

In fact, regarding stress for my own needs, I don’t really get anxious etc. I’m constantly running about Hashem and how He gives me whatever I need, and what’s best for me, and how He wants me to ask Him if I’d prefer something else in the future. How no one can do anything to me unless He wills it, and I can rely on Him etc. So I don’t get negatively stressed or anxious.

Also the language used when Hashem promises to punish sinners suggests a certain personal investment so to speak, (פונה אני מכל עסקי ועוסק בו) and I’m
wonder if we know more about the “emotions” Hashem works through when He is a Kel Nekamos. I’ve heard about a letter of The Rebbe which explains that schar and onesh is automatic, that one draws upon himself from Above the corresponding consequence to his action, but we also know how every blade of grass moves with precise hashgocha protis, so it’s not like an automatic system where Hashem is not invested… so I’d love to know more

Here’s a cool deep understanding of Shema Yisrael in honor of Lag Baomer when the inner aspects of Torah were revealed (that I learned today):

The short version: Hashem really cares about what you have in mind when you work or make supper.

Long version:

So when a Jew contemplates how Hashem is much greater than all of His Unlimited light, of which sparks chipped off and descended into this world for us to elevate…

Then

Ayin=70= 7 middos x 10 (kochos they are inclusive of)

And the Ayin is big to represent the intellectual (as opposed to emotional) excitement that this contemplation brings

Yisrael= the Jewish people who are tasked with bringing this revelation into all the mundane acts of their lives by doing it with a G-dly intent

When we do this, then

Hevaya= the Unlimited Light of Hashem becomes unified with

Elokeinu= Bina of Atzilus- the first place we can feel that we have some grasp of the new G-dly revelation

Hevaya = The Unlimited Light of Hashem descends further to unite with

Echad= the lower Sefirot where one may think that G-d is not one as the Sefirot may have contradictory characters, so it unites with The Unlimited Light of Hashem to become truly One with Him, and then

Baruch Shem Kvod Malchuso Lolam Vaed…

The Light descends further to give all the worlds life force until it reaches us and makes physical changes in our world such as healing the sick etc.

This is the type of stuff I love to learn about Hashem 😀😀