Judgemental people

Maivin:
I understood the message as “don’t give up”. Truly good advice. By saying so, you showed your personality. I mean no disrespect. What I’m saying back is, we are all of the same root.

YWN:
Refusing to post my words without due cause is geneivas daas.

Clearly you’ve all made up your mind that you know everything. Please explain the storms right now all over the world…

Aharon hakohen brought about peace by using deceptive speech. He used speech in deception to cause peace. That is what the one who judged me negatively did today to me, but it caused a rift between him and I. As I experienced pain through action, not only words. Others will be mesaken the damage of the action, by giving money to me to be able to teach more how to be loving. The one who did the action has plenty of work now to be mesaken his neshama. He had no ill will, but now that he pointed a finger likaf chov, even by mistake, he is once again not a kli machzik beracha and has to once again find a way to become one again. We have shared knowledge on how to accomplish that. He will succeed on his own, because our creator will help him achieve success. Once he uses the knowledge and tools to become a kli machzik bracha again, I will be able to share more beracha with him.

Reb Eliezer:
I have recently achieved much success despite the pain of my youth. I have understood what pain means and how to move past it. I experience other people’s pains when they have too much of a burden. If they ask for help and want help, I give assistance with my spiritual connection for them to help themselves, but only if they desire to experience our creator’s love. I show them how to change their pain into love. Those who hurt me never win. Unless they are honestly trying not to hurt and trying to learn to love themselves. Our creator has given me a gift of empathy. Once I have a connection with one who wants out of pain, even if I’m not with them in person, I do experience their pain through spirituality and have the ability to help them overcome. I am living proof that our creator, our neshamos, are real and are made of pure love. edited I have come to appreciate true Torah and our true creator. I know which step on the ladder I am standing on. Every step up the ladder I take, I do my best to be as secure on that step as I can get, before moving up to the next rung. I don’t need to rush up to the next rung on the ladder but when people lower on the climb are just holding on for the free ride, I disconnect spiritually from them until they are willing to put in effort. Lifum tzaara agra. I don’t wish to take your reward from you, so I don’t wish to take your pain from you either. But I do wish people would truly value the rewards over the pain.

This must be read to understand what made my view change. I was hurt physically because of religious views, forced to do whatever I was told without thought. At a certain young age, due to physical abuse, with no knowledge about how to heal myself, my skin developed an inflammatory issue called psoriasis. What most don’t know about it is that the skin duplicates too fast and surface skin dies, while skin beneath it grows hot from dead skin on the surface. My body was on overdrive for life of the skin. To heal from physical and emotional pain, I would consume endless amounts of food. Insane food expenses. I was so overweight that doctors told my biological parents that I wasn’t going to reach age 20 without dieting. I had given up on diets that just never worked. But I gave one last chance and doctors gave me a diet based on bloodwork. I lost 70 pounds in 6 months. Kept the weight off for 3 years. Then a rabbinical authority coupled with my parents insisted that I quit my diet for one day, Rosh Hashana. I knew if I did, all work put in would be lost. But I did what I was told to do by my rabbi and my parents, quit for one day, never went back on. All this time, my skin condition expanded all over the surface. Doctors sent every medication they could, but another family member was already doing certain immuno compromising prescription drugs because of facing the same medical conditions, from the same source. It came to a point that I was informed of a warning by the other family member this could lead to organ failure, as the skin is the largest organ of the body. Any attempts to go off medication would have caused that family member to die. I took my own steps to avoid the same pitfalls. As skin was duplicating too fast, I had to slow down by killing my skin cells in bleach baths. It was a constant battle for years, to the point that I was bathing in commercial bleach baths. Accused of mental illness led to ingestion of weight gaining medication, I reached 375 pounds, I could not fit in a bath tub, had difficulty cleaning up when I went to the restroom, at which point I went to my doctor wearing a 8xlt shirt and showed him what was happening, begging for prescription steroids to regain control. After bloodwork, I was declared a diabetic, doctors were just about to give up hope on me. But we worked out a plan together, I am down in less than 3 months, 68 pounds. I used Torah knowledge to understand that it was a matter of pikuach nefesh in more than one way. In addition, funding was dry, as if I’d turn on the faucet and be lucky if clean water came out. There wasn’t enough available funds to cover kosher meat, every Jew I spoke to wanted to control where I got food from, but never shared enough to cover the bills to recuperate. I then told them one by one “mochel tovos”, if you’re not in fully, I don’t want your assistance. Partial assistance without problem solving is in essence saying I want you to have issues. My own brothers turned against me, to kill me. Our creator did not allow it to happen. edited I learnt what self love really means, connected with Torah I had learned on the level of self love. The day I understood the true nature of Torah, these storms that I wrote in the chat room erupted all over planet earth. Firenatoes, tornadoes, earthquakes. I was no longer afraid to walk outside despite the tornado warning. I knew my creator loves me and is protecting me. I have just connected with our creator today on a level I have never experienced or expected to achieve. There is a law in Judaism called we go up in holiness and we don’t go down. I am rising with self love, of my neshama and my creator protecting it inside, that people have begun taking pictures of me on the street, coming over reaching out to give high five, jaws dropping all around me, but I’m determined to hopefully never disconnect from either source. To have those connections grow and push all this dark energies away, show them how to change into love energy. If someone writes me off, they wrote off the torah and neshama and hashem within me. You hurt yourself more than you hurt me. Eventually, all your spiritual eyes will open, as mine is not far away from doing so fully.