Assaf, this must be very difficult for you right now. But you might feel surprisingly more comfortable after having an honest conversation with your parents. Easier said than done, but you won’t feel so much pressure after.
As long as you’re being respectful and without any blaming.
i love how the topics always eventuslly lead to a convo that have nothing to do with this! lol but i wish you a lot of luck and bh may u be zoche to decide who u really are one day and be able to make the right decisions and stand by them! hatzlacha rabba!