"Prayer" for jobless people – from the depths of a desperate soul

I was unemployed for more than 18 months and wrote a “prayer” to express the desperation in my soul. I hope that others in similar situations may find some comfort in reading and perhaps reciting this. May it be Hashem’s will to provide Parnosah Brevach to all K’lal Yisroel.

Our Father in Heaven, before You lie all our needs, lowliness and insecurities

Without You we have nothing and we can do nothing to help ourselves

Like paupers at the door, we hope and anxiously await for Your mercy

Help us that we should not find ourselves in a state of want, needing human assistance to make it

To keep far from us feelings of desperation over not knowing how to make ends meet

Please send me the correct thoughts and words to my mind and mouth

To utter before You a pleasing and meaningful prayer

That You will accept and answer my wishes

Please open all doors of Parnosah to my family even as I see no way to penetrate seemingly un-scalable barriers

That the right job will be Heavenly sent to me and that I will fill the requirements wonderfully

Ribbono Shel Olam, each day I hope that this is the day that You will deliver me

From being dependent upon Tzedaka and government-issued poverty relief

How I wish so badly to join the ranks of those who have a meaningful job to go to each day

And to simply exercise my responsibilities of supporting my family

The pain of not being able to earn a living is so penetrating

I have no Koach to endure any longer in this constant state of need and worry

My heart is so fearful lest we have nothing to feed my family or to take care of their many other vital needs

I always feel as if I am on the edge of the cliff

Always dreading the next bill or expense that will throw me over the edge

Ribbono Shel Olam, I do not ask for nor desire extravagant living conditions

I simply wish to be able to put food on the table, a roof over our head and to pay our numerous bills

I just wish for this constant state of dread and helpless desperation to please come to an end quickly

Please let this pain end to be replaced with feelings of security and optimism for the future

Just as You provided Mun and all other needs for our forefathers in the desert

With the intention of freeing our minds and energies to do Your will

To be Macheneich our children in the Derech HaTorah as well as performing numerous acts of Chesed

To remove the constant travail of barely having enough to make it

Ribbono Shel Olam no one can help us other than You

From You, all our Yeshuos, no matter how large or small, are arranged and delivered

Surely it is up to You the ultimate decider of our fate; it is never too hard for You to find us Parnosah

Please influence all the people we encounter to make the decisions that will help our family in the most beneficial way

Please confer upon us the feeling of security, being safe and well cared for, in Your hands

Please bless us that we will give lavishly to all causes of Tzedaka

Help us to build our household as a wellspring of Chesed, with total selflessness

To share from Your Heavenly overflowing bounty to many others and bring them relief from their pain and worry

To bring joy to so many people who will join us in forever singing Your praises