Staring helplessly
paralyzed by the unknown,
I can’t understand myself,
I feel so alone.
I know I am sinning,
I know I’m doing wrong,
So why can’t I change
my bad ways from so long?
I know where I should be,
I know what I should do,
Yet I can’t get myself up
and mistakes try to undue.
Feeling guilty, scared,
horrible and ungrateful,
Hashem is showing mercy,
He’s not acting hateful.
When will I change?
mend my awful ways,
fix my wrongdoings,
I did for so many days…