THE UNNORMAL
How do i begin to share the great pain that i own
About a life of solitude of being totally alone
Born into a family that was completely the norm
Until i was born one day and brought on the storm
Many physical problems i was unfortunately given
How would i survive in a family where only the normal live in
So many problems was i bestowed with on my birthday
And born to a father who always looked away
To them being different was a tremendous curse
Nothing in the world could be any worse
So to protect their name i had to hide my defects
according to my family i belonged with life’s rejects
I was their dirty little secret to be hidden and ashamed
Because i brought a curse on our family and them i defamed
My father made me feel as if i had ruined his perfect name
A son born to HIM so frail and abnormal and not the same
My mother tried to do the best that she could do
But you didn’t disagree my father that much we knew
So i lived my life full of shame and disgrace
For being the cause of disturbing their perfect place
My siblings carried on their fathers cue
they knew that to me no respect should be due
It was all right to sit on their plateau and to abuse
They huddled together and would mock me and set off my fuse
To whom could i turn with my pain so embedded and raw
As i would cry myself to sleep and pray to a g-d who never saw
My existence was ridden with pain and strife
So many times i wondered how can i live this life?
This whole terrible existence carried on throughout childhood
If i could escape by grabbing on to a shooting star i would
As i became an adult the stress manifested and grew
Causing more problems to me someday it would kill me i knew
At the age of 30 i finally made my escape from their hold
I moved to a different city it was an attempt to be bold
And with therapy and distance my self worth did arise
And i found confidence in myself that was a surprise
I found out that i was smart and even funny too
Things i never realized because they made my life so blue
I live my life now with happiness and pride
No worries about a family that would always deride.