SaysMe, please don’t despair! We here all care about you and your well being very much. I am so sorry about the bitachon issues you are having. That must make things even more difficult to deal with. Do you have someone close to you or someone you respect that can help you in that area? Or maybe a book? I’ve heard there are some wonderful books on Emuna and bitachon, perhaps those can help. I think the most important thing right now is to try to get a solid foundation in that, and once you have that, everything else will be much easier. I know because I went through a pretty rough stage, faith-wise, in high school, and that was the worst period of my life, and that was when my issues became the hardest to deal with. After realizing that, I got some help with my faith, and things became much easier. Wishing you only success in getting stronger in that area! I really hope things will turn around for the better. We all care about a lot, and wish you the best!
Kapusta, no problem, and welcome back! I missed you here.
Syag, you are definitely right. I should try to realize that it is very possible that these people aren’t thinking badly about me, and it’s just my mind that assumes that. I guess I just have those thoughts since I never really had someone outside of my family reach out to me and offer help and support when I needed it, and therefore, I automatically assume that they’re against me. But that can be completely wrong, it is entirely possible that they just never thought to help, not because of any ill feelings, just because it never occurred to them. I have to work on myself in that area. Thanks for bringing it up.
Think first, shavua tov! That is a lovely poem, with a great message. Thanks for sharing!