kapusta- you said hi, and i pushed for something more :). Sorry for your frustration and hope it passes fast
think first- glad it was so nice! I love walking, even just in quiet neighbourhoods that have some treesand birds around! It’s my escape
blabla- that is so hard, and wishing a refuah shleima. Iy”H we should hear good news. Yes, it is soo difficult and challenging when someone close to you is suffering too. But if Hashem did this to you, it means He believes in you, even if you question yourself!! And if He brought you to it, He will bring you through it. If it seems to much any time, try to let go of the need to control and tell Hashem, it’s overwhelming me. And i am turning it over to You. Help me because its too heavy for me to carry alone. And mean it, and try to truly loosen your grip on things that are really out of your control. Let go of the map and daven for Hashem to guide you, because He knows the directions best.