think first- welcome back! Or hello on your visit! I know, it’s sad how it died out…
Taom- maybe lost IS a better word. But i call it pain, and sometimes depression. But you are more right, it having lost ones way, the sight of ones goals, the big picture, the purpose of and meaning in ones life. And it’s a feeling I (and some other poets here) have related to or still do. I’m not someone who can advise. There is some amazing advice and direction on pages past of this thread. All i can offer is understanding, care, and to let you know you’re not alone, and someone feels for you. I hope your life makes a tremendous sudden turn upwards and you see and understand how its all for your good, and grow through the struggle