Reply To: Going off the Derech

S1-Your post concerns me. First of all, you must get in touch with a Rabbi/Rebbetzin that you can speak to one on one. You need more than encouragement, you need to believe in yourself. What do you mean you were ‘becoming so good”? You ARE good, you are intrinsically good and nothing can change that. Perhaps you are confused, or don’t feel strong enough to fight the yetser hara. If you like to read, there are wonderful books that can help strengthen your emunah and bitachon. Whenever we feel challenged, for whatever reason, ie a child OTD, a sick family member etc, we MUST strengthen our emunah, bc ultimately, it is a test for US. I found the following books to be very helpful:

1. Don’t Give Up by Rabbi Leib Pinter

2. Trust Me by Rabbi Eliezer Parkoff

3. Chizuk by Rabbi Eliezer Parkoff