Avram sounds like your gaslighting yourself into a keeping a job you hate and not listening to yourself. That’s ok keep suffering. Remember we have free will and a playing field to make this life better for us but if you want to justify suffering go ahead.
In those days there’s was no _authority figure_ holding people accountable everyone did what was good in his own eyes. Let’s rephrase things so you understand _context_ and not use it to serve an agenda
The Bible is not filled with a bunch of rituals it’s filled with commandments, concepts stories morality and a way of life. Humans have ritualized it taken it out of context added things that were not there using language that is _controlling_ read the Bible itself with an open heart of wisdom and everything therein makes sense and it’s ease for the soul…also alot of commandments were added to and makes life harder for people the actual commandments is usually easy and much more in line with our nature.
You keep saying I’m saying do whatever you want to his world is a free playing field but its not free of consenquces I’m saying, filter things through your intellect so you know right and wrong so you can choose properly. That’s not saying do whatever you want. You cannot do whatever you want lol. And I’m using the Torah as a guidebook but reading it in context. The Torah is written in the most simple English/Hebrew theres no way you can misinterpret it unless you don’t know simple language.