Thanks for all your thoughts on my initial posting.
For those who say life is great, how can you be depressed e.t.c you no offence but you have obviously never been affected by depression, or not what I suffer from at least.
Whatrutalkingabt –
I do have a Rebbe but often feel embarrassed talking too much about my problems to him, because I feel so bad about them. Also talking over the phone is not the same has in person, which is the only possibility.
Lightitup –
Bpt-
I do believe in myself and abilities that is not the issue for me, it is more an issue of making use of them to accomplish my aims and goals.
Aries –
ditto re bpt. Also see above. It is not about a race to the chupah for me, if that was true I would have been off the blocks a long time ago. Has I put in my original post I have many reasons that I want to get married and these are all legitimate reasons, it is just certain things are holding me back from fulfilling this desire to get married.
Parasoxescliches –
if you can help me please do so. That would be amazing. Mods please see if you can arrange for a swap of contact info between us. Thanks.
Observanteen –
your second post is spot on, how we feel is not always within our power of choice and it vital that people understand this rather than writing things like just smile. If only life was so simple