I just reread some posts and I want to address this: “through out my years friends have always said they look forward to shabbos as a break from the week i always thought they where joking,cause in my house i dread it cause it means more yelling at me and somethimes things being throne,i said something ot my brother about shabbos and said he always felt the same way about dreading it… “
I wasn’t frum at your age, but I dreaded weekends and couldn’t wait to go back to school. School breaks and summer vacation were sheer gehinnom. This is not normal!! The day I went away to college was one of the happiest days of my life. I was very close to my father, although it was years before I realized he was to blame for not protecting me.
Hashem should protect you and give you the strength you need to endure this! I really feel for you.