Reply To: No more college?

rationalfrummie- i hear that, and it’s part of my uncertainty. But in yiddishkeit, the end doesn’t really justify the means.

Squeak- hmm. Not that you’ll have THE answer, but why on earth do employers want a BA that was gotten as an end goal?? Whats the point of it? So now everyone needs a BA to do anything, and it just loses its worth. that concept of just a BA for a job in a different field just seems irrational to me. And for that, i’m sure most people would do those online programs you finish in a year, but that’s not really the equivalent of anything… Yeah i know that didnt come out in a logical sentence.

Syag- awwww come on. How about a summary in point form?

T613- yes there is i guess :). The fact that i never wanted to go to college and was against it hashkafically. But my parents ‘made’ me go, and i did. And i spoke to a psych/rav then who unintentionally gave me the mindset to make the most of it, try to succeed and feel good about it while not trying too much. And i didnt have to work too hard to get the As, so it all worked well. Then i saw myself being affected and it made it into a struggle to go to school, and gave the whole thing an acrid taste, but i pushed myself. And eventually i was pushed over the edge? The difficulty jumped a lot this year and the work got overwhelming. That stress and timedrain affected my ruchniyus too i’m sure. I failed a course this semester. I wanted more than ever before (which was always a lot) to get out of college. Got over the past year too many comments from old friends about how i disappeared and only ever saw or spoke to friends at weddings, with the exception of a handful who i had a bit more contact with. My regular shiur i went to conflicted with a neccesary class, so that one weekly outing was out of my schedule. Seeing my ruchni losses killed me. I’ve changed. Etc etc etc?

Oh, and in the field i’m aiming for, marks do count. Above anything else.