TAOM – I must pair you up with one of my friends, she is going through something so similar with her father all her life… It’s especially weird cuz your personality always reminded me of her. Just really odd. I really don’t know what to tell you. And I’m not going to say I understand your pain, cuz I don’t. But know that we’re with you in it! I’m probably your biggest fan 🙂
I just came across something I wrote last year when my life sort of resembled Nechama Cohen’s song “Complicated” Enough said. I’m not going to post it as it is really personal (yeh, I’m one of those who write my diaries in poetic form…) but it was about riding the waves. You know there are ups and downs, its rhythmic, it’s life. But then there are those times that you are really high but all of the sudden you find yourself underwater struggling to breath and you feel like you’re going to drown. And you can’t even make your way to the surface, let alone to ride another wave. That’s where my poem ended, but I plan on sitting down and finishing it this afternoon. The same waters that pushed you down, is going to bring you back up. And back down. But up again. You know what I’m saying…
I too have a really hard time dealing with people’s idiotic questions. See my rant about it in a different thread… I finally figured out that people mean well, they’re just not sure how to express themselves. I actually pity them.
And please, find someone ASAP. Someone that you can speak to face to face. Please! And not someone your age (I’m saying that from experience) as it will only messes things up more than it is.
And one more thing, next time you send out an invitation to you funeral make sure not to send it to me