streekgeek-
You’re so nice! What would I do without the CR… I wish I could somehow meet that friend of yours! Try convincing her to join the cr family, K? Your post is so eloquent- I could tell you write poetry! I do too btw. I haven’t got that much talent but it’s theraputic so I do it anyways. I get what you’re saying about the waves of life… Everything you said was so true! Do you have any poems that aren’t private? If you feel comfy posting one or two (or more!) then please do so! I wish I could find someone to talk to but… I dunno. I just feel really awkward which I guess can be expected from someone in my situation. If things don’t start looking up then I’ll call a teacher I’m kinda close with. I spoke to her this past summer when things were pretty bad so she knows some stuff- I wouldn’t have to tell her everything… OK, b’li neder, I’ll call her sometime soon. As for my funeral invitations- next time things blow u like this, I don’t think I’ll have the presence of mind to think about whom to invite. I’ll just send out a mass mailing;(
I get what you’re saying about being careful about the stuff I daven for. I’m just really frustrated right now so I’m not thinking logically. I hope someday you’ll get over your guilty consience- someone as wonderful as you doesn’t deserve that! As for the Shabbos invite- OMIGOSH, I wish! I need a break from my life. I can’t go through another Shabbos with my parents yelling all the time, I really can’t! I wish there was a way we could meet in three dimensional life… You seem like someone I’d be on good terms with!
Have a great Shabbos and thanks for your posts!