TAOM-
I’ve wanted to post for a while. Sorry for the delay.
I was watching a clip of something recently, where someone very overweight was starting to work out with a personal trainer. The trainer pulled out 20 pound chains, and started putting them on him one by one until he had added 80 pounds extra. The trainer then explained to him that by his being at that weight, he was shlepping around weights that he never took off. To transfer that to life, some of the “weight” (stress) is impossible to take off, but if someone else can help carry even some of the extra, it means you have less to carry by yourself. A teacher you feel comfortable approaching will likely have your best interests in mind and do what she can to help you. You don’t have to get into the nitty gritty now, but its still a way to ease the load some. If you’re uncomfortable talking to her directly at first, maybe you can write her a note and leave it in her box in the office.
I think you’ve mentioned you want to go into social work. Doctors spend years going through rigorous schooling and training. When they finish with it, they can save lives. I’ve been there (different way), and I know sometimes its “just” hard, and sometimes it seems impossible but I believe pain is pain, whatever type. And maybe one day you can use the pain you’ve been through to help people.
Tears are incredibly powerful and every one goes somewhere. I’m sorry things are so hard now and I hope that you’ll be on to the bigger and better very soon IY”H. <3
TAU