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I see that you decided to drop the subject and yet I feel I must say something. I got married a few month ago. I didn’t want to. I didn’t have much of a choice though. I didn’t feel ready and I wasn’t. I knew it then and I tried talking to people but all they did was tell me it’s ok things will be fine great…. As I said I didn’t have much of a choice anyway. And now I’m married and this past few month have been one long trauma. I can’t forgive myself and feel like I ruined it. Yes, I had issues and maybe if I would have waited a time would come when I’d actually want to get married. I can never express in words what I’m going through. I can’t sleep and eat normally and only function enough so that outside people will (hopefully?) not realize what’s going on. I don’t know how long I’ll be able to live like thi. I’m losing my strength and hope every day. PLEASE DONT PUSH HER TO THIS!!!!!!